Spring has Sprung

Well, it has been way too long since I wrote anything about the kids or myself. This has been a month of highs and lows that somewhat mirror the weather. We began the month with snow and are ending it with beautiful spring NC weather. Baseball is going well for Zac, there team is 2-1 with two games cancelled because of wet fields. School is still a cross to bare for him and for Timmy. Timmy crossed over to the boyscout troop this past weekend. Timmy seems to enjoy time with Eddie at his place and Zac is more 50/50 about it. I guess that is to be expected. We are excited for Spring Break and going to Atlanta to see the Braves.
As for me I feel like I am a mess half the time. My buddy has been slammed at work and then has to go home so I have had little time with him and he has been my rock and I miss it terribly. I did meet one of his friends and he was nice and all but is in a messier situation than I am with his separation so he is not ready for a relationship and to devote any time to me. I miss having someone here in the evenings. It gets pretty lonely and I miss the hugs and snuggles. I know that things will look up as there are more opportunities to meet people and maybe I can find someone who can be for me. It is totally exhausting to do all this by myself, from the kids to the yard and all that is in between. I know things could be so much worse and I am grateful for all I have but it does not erase what I miss. I am looking forward to a good spring and some wonderful opportunities to grow and be a good mom.